Critiquing Myself

Wednesday, April 17, 2013
I am my biggest critic. Do my legs look thin enough in these pants? What about my arms, how do they look in this shirt? My hair isn't looking right, now what do I do with it? The list of daily questions I ask myself goes on. It all starts when I get dressed in the morning and look at myself in the mirror, feel the looseness or tightness of my clothing, speculate if my outfit looks good enough, zone in on my imperfections, and so on. I begin my mornings by comparing myself to someone that I simply am not. And these insecurities tend to creep in and out of my mind all day long. It's a nasty cycle to allow yourself to delve into. And yet,  I know I'm not the only female out there that feels this way and puts myself through so much scrutiny...but sometimes it sure feels that way. I watch women around me and their seeming confidence as they go about their business. I envy them, for what I am assuming they have within themselves that I don't. Turns out more than not, those same women I'm observing have the exact same confidence and self-esteem issues that I possess. When a woman looks at another woman she is so much more positive about the appearance of that female versus the way in which she sees herself. And that's exactly what a video I recently stumbled upon demonstrates. It's a must see and so true to its core. If only I could see myself the way others see me. I need to start practicing more positive thoughts and begin to see myself in a brighter light. Are you thinking the same thing?

"I would rather be what God chose to make me than the most glorious creature that I could think of; for to have been thought about, born in God’s thought, and then made by God is the dearest, grandest, and most precious thing in all thinking." — C.S. Lewis
2 comments on "Critiquing Myself "
  1. You don't know me, but I'm compelled to respond. I was literally just looking at all your engagement photos thinking "wow, she is so beautiful". (Congrats btw!) I completely understand your feeling - and as time goes on some days are harder than others ('is that a wrinkle? am i too young for wrinkles? will i just become less beautiful every day? Will it become harder and harder to like myself?') Some days are terrible like that, and other days the thoughts remain at bay. Sometimes it just takes more energy to shift your thoughts away from those negative voices and focus on all the positivity. It sounds like you have many people in your life that love you and see your beauty. And you have a wonderful partner to go through life with, in Pete, who no doubt provides ample amounts of positive feedback. Listen to him. Hear him. Let him be your mirror. Accept that he's right. And eventually even when he's not around, you'll hear his words and know that you are lucky to have all that you do - beauty inside and out. (PS Sorry if this is weird since I don't know you... Just felt like responding!)

  2. Thank you so much for your kind words. Regardless of not knowing you, you are so right in your sentiment, especially about my Pete. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts and the reminder, I truly appreciate it.


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